Johnny Angel how I love YOU. The song that my late Mother would sing to you when you would cry at night during the first few weeks on earth. Our first born son came to us one day before we celebrated our two year wedding anniversary on March 30,2002. An early Easter Bunny and a reminder of the foundation of our Christian faith. The resurrection established Jesus as the powerful Son of God and now I have given birth to my first son. Easter includes some of the most ancient and universal symbols of birth, nature, fertility, birth and re-birth, hence the rabbit and the egg. In the Old Testament, the firstborn son was the one who normally received a double inheritance, and was the one who would inherit his father’s role as head of the family. I’m not so sure about the double inheritance thing, but you are certainly in the early learning stages of making your way to take on you’re Father’s role as the family head.
Now right about now Johnny is reading this saying why is my Mom writing about ME? The answer is simply I am in constant awe of your accomplishments and the young man you are. My son you are a:
Deep critical thinker
Have a thirst for knowledge beyond anyone I’ve known
Have deep empathy for others
To name a few.
I have met many fathers who want their boys to follow in their athletic footsteps. Either to potentially fill the void they were not able to fill when it was their time to shine or to continue the legacy they started years beforehand. There are also many Mothers like myself that wanted to have all sons and have them follow in the footsteps I started years ago. You see I believed that children learned to be confident on the field. I never realized you can feel just as confident on the stage. I knew that being a part of a team sport helped children learn to reach a common goals and help develop communication skills and problem solving skills. I never knew the comradeship that is built in clubs like the drama club could do the same. I’ve also learned through you that like sports these clubs develop tight bonds and provide fantastic support systems. In fact you have taught me that there is a close kinship between art and sport. The more that I digest what you have taught me the more I think baseball is the best kinda drama around! See we DO have something in common! Remember when I made you come with me to the 2016 opening day game at Yankee stadium? We danced on my favorite stage to Frank Sinatra’s New York New York. Do you remember when I forced you to watch a post season Yankee game this year? There was real drama there for sure.
I began writing this blog in November 2017 when I had been home from my most recent surgery. A lovely Achilles tendon rupture due to the fact that I can’t sit still! I found myself unable to finish until today January 10, 2018 when an early morning text went kinda like this…
AGAIN you have done it. Made me cry. Made me proud.
When the ultrasound wand confirmed you in my belly on September 11, 2001 I and your Father cried at the loss of life that day and cried for the new life we were bringing into this world. I once held you in my arms rocking my sweet baby boy to sleep and before I knew it we stood eyeball to eyeball. Today growing too fast I now look up to you both literally and figuratively. Nearly every day for the past 15.5 years you have touched my soul in some way. If you didn’t do another thing, win another award, get another A, I want you to know I’m proud of the young man you’ve become. I love the way you love your brothers (most days). I love the way you are a good friend and listener to others. I love the way you give generously. I am proud of you, son.
So lets get on stage again my son. My kinda stage or you’re kinda stage we can start spreading the news cause I find your king of the hill, top of the heap.